losing someone is tough. a lot of time i wonder what would happen if i died. would people miss me? how many would show up at my service? would it be filled with people that i barely spoke to saying i was such a good friend and we were close to one another? or would … Continue reading death
FINALLY DONE WITH FINALS!!! I feel so relieved now that all of this is over and done with! I think it's safe to say that I've passed all 5 of my classes this semester! I hope next semester I'm better aware and have great time management because this semester was just a mess. I can … Continue reading Crushed Finals Week
you know what? I hate depression memes. But I can't tell which i hate more: depression memes or attention seeking people that 'have' depression. I think when my depression wasn't so severe I did enjoy the memes and couldn't help but be that type of person that would repost and caption it "me" But as … Continue reading Depression Memes
what do you do when you start questioning your faith? a friend of mine was in an accident 2 weeks ago that left him in critical condition, everyday for those 2 weeks I prayed for him. Every day and every night I would ask God to touch him, to awaken him and restore his health, … Continue reading Losing Faith
Red, dry eyes. Mascara stained cheeks Streaks of my natural skin before the tears slid my foundation and concealer off. Shaky breathes, convincing myself I need to stop As quiet as i can be cause nobody can know. Red cheeks from self-shame Red palms from digging my nails into it. An aching heart and a … Continue reading She is Red.
second guessing sucks. you have what you want right at your fingertips and the next second you're not sure it's what you want. you tell yourself "i'm sure this time" "i wont let myself convince me otherwise" but then a flip switches and you're left overthinking it all. i didn't know it was going to … Continue reading unsure
It's almost finals week. Just about a week and a half away and I'm nervous. I'm doing good in my classes, as of now i'm passing all 5 courses but I still can't help but freak out. Exams can take you from an A to an F real quick depending on the weight of the … Continue reading An Update